I feel drained. I feel afraid. There are so many undone things in my mind, mind you, its all about work. I'm in a loss. This term is seriously too draining, all my energy, my passion for studying, is all but lost. Now 1 week of holidays is coming to an end. I seriously dont understand why there is only 1 week of holidays, when exams are ending in early october and school is ending in late october. why cant they give us more rest? Holidays doesnt feel like holidays, each day i have to go back to school, what different is it from school days?

Each day, i think of the dire consequences, and i get afraid. How can i overcome all these difficulties? I want to work hard for term 4, i want to get good results, but how when im drained out and i have teachers that cant teach. Everybody has this stero typed idea, Catholic High branded school blah blah blah = fantastic teachers and education. But you people are so wrong, i'm not gonna talk about the teachers, it just pisses me off. Everytime i go school, i sit down and listen to the teachers, but actually i'm not, im thinking of other stuff, projects, homeworks. I cant be bothered with them, even if i listen i dont understand, minority of the teachers in cat high are good, fortunately i have 1 out of 5. and that is mr julian teo:)

I dont understand some things, why do have such lame things such as carpedium, appreciation of chinese culture, and malay? what does it do? i think its a waste of time. Argh, i just dont know how to explain to you people. i rather use that time for self study instead? Actually homework, and revising is not the main problem, its projects, when you have a group of fucking assholes in your team, your project can never seem to be done.

it's 10:18 PM now