fattestpigonearth!

I just realized i'm in deep shit, so many things undone yet not knowing how to do/ solve it. I need help, but i dont know how to put down my pride to ask. Its really tough. For example, my biology, i seriously have no idea what my teacher is teaching, i'm afraid of the consequences if i dont do well for term 4. I read reference books, and i have still no idea about the topic at all. What should i do? futhermore, its not only this, theres still so much homework, futhermore, theres an oral exam in term 4 week 1, and i didnt get back my speech, and there's still this geography project, IT project. I'm getting tired, and worried. Just take it i'm stressed out, tied up. How am i suppose to help myself? when i myself is in a loss.

Each day, i'm just worrying, what should i do? I want to study, but i dont know how, w/o all the materials, i got reference books, but i dont understand them. I'm not sure whether those books are suitable for my standard yet, i dont know what to learn. I'm like freaking myself out everyday, just about my studies that i cant enjoy my holidays, in my mind its just her and studies, nothing more, how can i enjoy? Deborah and jonathan, its up to you:)

I do need someone. Yes, I do. Someone's within grasp. but when i stretch my hands she doesnt want to catch it. Another matter thats troubling me, yeah its her. Every morning i pray to god, blessing everybody, but i doubt he blessed me. everyday, i'm troubled, putting on a brave front in front of all of you people even though i dont like it. Everyone, even i have a fragile side, and everybody needs someone to help them with their fragile side, but i'm left alone.

it's 12:36 AM now